So I've written a few journal entries now and have had ZERO feedback. I had thought that my writing would actually, not only help me write out and hear - outside my head - some of my bondage thoughts, but also obtain some feedback and help from some of the people reading this. Perhaps someone with a bit more experience or someone else that is also interested in the whole alternative, BDSM lifestyle. Perhaps someone that has some experience being tied up into a bondage position with rope, handcuffed and suspended, flogged with a whip, paddle or...stick.
I am afraid I am writing this into thin air. It has taken me so much courage in 'putting myself out there' and I am craving some feedback. So please, tell me where I might go, what I might do to educate myself on what it is I feel and desire.
It is much more than about the sex for me. It is a desire to be truly dominated by someone that also balances this with respect, desire and a 'relationship'. I know, for me, this can't be something 'full time' but it is also something that I desire to live on a daily basis. I don't know my own boundaries yet and I know that statement, in and of itself, tells me that I am not ready for the real world of BDSM yet. Instead, I want to learn, I want to reflect, I want to evolve and I want to start on this road toward finding the dominant man I desire...that desires me and will not simply dismiss me as something that I am not.
Just to let you know, your not writing into thin air, you just need to let time do it's thing, people need to discover you. I myself just found your blog only yesterday and I've started reading it from the very first post.
ReplyDeleteIn answer to your question on where to educate yourself on this lifestyle I started with the book "Screw the roses give me the thorns" and from there I went to "S&M 101" and then off in search of whatever interested me.
No matter where your search takes you enjoy it.