Well, it seems after a couple weeks of online fun, my would-be Dom has disappeared. We met, originally on adult personals website ALT.com a few weeks back and, it seemed, things were progressing. I was learning a lot of new things about myself and he seemed to really be helping me understand a bit more about my desire for bondage, a collar and I was learning some of the basics about the BDSM lifestyle. We were playing some interesting games and I was really enjoying the daily dialogue. We had become so comfortable, that we had played on cam and even sent text messages back and forth throughout the day. Then, suddenly - and without provocation or warning - it stopped.
I sent a couple additional messages to ask if I had done something to disappoint him. No reply. I sent one more telling him I was suddenly feeling very vulnerable and alone. Nothing. Oh well, I thought, it was what it was. Apparently, either I grew boring, the distance proved to great or perhaps he found something 'better' to do. I've moved on pretty seamlessly. I had invested some of myself in all of this but I also am not - never have been - the type to look back. I've too much going for myself right now to get down or blame myself.
I have been talking to a few others in the lifestyle during this time but was sorta giving most the brush as I was really enjoying my training. However, since this so-called Dom (I have to assume, for my benefit, that he is just a bit of a flake to not even message me goodbye) stopped responding, I've re-opened dialogue with a few. Some, thankfully, are more local.
One that intrigues me a bit is a couple. He is a Dom and she is a Switch. If you don't know what that term means, don't feel bad. I didn't either until I started searching around on places like CollarMe and ALT.com. A Switch is someone that plays both a submissive role and also plays a Dom (or, in this case Domme) role. She is, decidedly, a submissive with her man. However, they've indicated that they've entertained single females before and, in this situation, she prefers to play a dominant role.
Both are just my style. Intelligent, sexy, fit and very attractive. They added benefit is that they live about 35 miles from me. So, a meeting is possible. I am not sure I am ready for that yet. Especially since I am still smarting a bit (and perhaps just a bit wiser) after my online Dom disappeared. Time will tell but this BDSM couple certainly is intriguing.
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