So today is Valentine's Day and I am still single with no prospects of finding the man I desire. While normally that would be pause for me to become depressed about my otherwise 'relationship-less' life, I am smiling today. Instead, I know that today I am single because I choose to be. I could be with a man. I've many offers. Trust me. But I see the alternative.
But the men I see, while sometimes coming off as 'alpha'-types, I see through their facade. I realize that when push-comes-to-shove, most men don't understand what being a dominant man is really about. The vanilla men I encounter are too 'metrophied'. They've been told that they need to be courteous, have good manners, treat a girl with 'respect'. While I agree with some of those qualities, what they lack is real substance at being the 'alpha' male I crave. I seek one that can control me while respecting me, have my greater interest in mind but also know that he is in control. I seek what I can not find through the normal channels. I seek a BDSM relationship built on trust, control, role and substance.
So to all of you celebrating this very beloved of christian valued holidays, I wish you the best. As for me, I've committed myself to learning more about, expanding my horizons and finding what I desire. I crave to be a true submissive.
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